TODAYS NOTE READ- NO EVIDENCE OF CANCER🎉🙌🙏
What does that mean?!
I’m still terminal, but now I’m also in remission, so I will continue to take all my medications for treatment indefinitely, but I am responding to the treatment very well and feel pretty good most days👍💪
If you are new to my story, insert cliff notes here 👇
We have officially made it past the 1 YEAR mark since I was diagnosed with terminal breast cancer and told I only had a few months left to live(June2022), where two of the three would most likely be a bed-ridden situation with hospice.
😵💫😵💫😵💫my processing😵💫😵💫😵💫
This year, living feels harder mentally for me than last year thinking I was down to only months and planning my funeral. Why, you might ask? Well, last year I had total peace thinking I “knew” what was next, HEAVEN! I even had dreams during yoga class, of my heavenly body being made as each organ in my earthly body would fail. I was truly excited to go on to the eternal world! But God chose to flip the script the doctors originally read from. And so now I live with a weird ptsd state of what’s next and almost feel like a sitting duck sometimes. But with todays scan, it is time to move on! Not on from this life just yet it seems, but move on from the feeling of being suspended in air waiting to drop. Time for intentional action!
I’m moving from the crisis chapter of my life, to the living with terminal illness management chapter. What life looks like now is a regular routine of three medications, some daily (chemo and hormone therapy) along with scans every 3 months, instead of having regular treatment(no scans or scans yearly).
I’m learning it is going to require a different kind of mentality. Last year, life felt like I was at war and loud alarm bells going off constantly and coming to terms with seeing my end in sight each day. Now, it’s just sort of a distant alarm sound and a general sense of the unknown.
I believe cancer is a result of living in a fallen world and upon a cursed earth, and believers and unbelievers alike develop cancer and other diseases that lead to death. It just is a fact of this life. As a Christian follower of Jesus, I need to remember that, in the life of His follower, God “works all things together for good” (Romans 8:28)—and “all things” includes cancer. Lord forgive me when I focus on my circumstances over focusing on You and the Cross, I thank you for gifting me hope.
“Praise the LORD, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits—who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion.”
Whether you are dealing with illness, financial struggle, issues at work, self image, loneliness, I pray we will all tilt our focus from our circumstances and our self, and praise the Lord. Oh, our soul, let us worship His holy name! 🤟🫶✝️
Thank you Jesus for the Cross, my cancer, and my clear scan. Amen
☠️ Dead-girl-walking update☠️
Rebecca’s Story
From terminal to triumph, Rebecca Masdon writes stories of faith and resilience as a “dead girl walking.”