I’m Walking Too!

Each day brings new thoughts of course… but today I am hyper aware of death, I don’t know how to explain it, but it feels close, and I feel more peace today than the last few days.

🙌 During my quiet time at the beach this morning I was thinking about my death in correlation to Christ’s death.

As I’m thinking it through and comparing our situations it made my measly “cancer death” seem like a walk in the park (or on the beach😂) compared to Christ’s murder.

As sad as it feels in our silly human minds to think of someone we love dying(especially if they are what we deem “too young to die,” as if we know the proper age ha) I’m reminded that my “dying experience” is truly a vacation compared to some peoples actual day-to-day living-lives lol if that makes sense🤷‍♀️😂

It’s not sad, in fact it just is what it is,
IM JUST DYING 🤷‍♀️🙌😇

JESUS DIDN’T GET TO JUST DIE…
he was brutally murdered in front of his mom, who didn’t even get to enjoy sex to have him! Like what?!?! 🤯😂

I’m getting to die peacefully in a bougie pillow-top bed cuddled by puppies, or possibly somewhere beautiful on one of our many vacations my husband has planned for the rest of the year!

Jesus died naked and exposed amongst criminals.

I am receiving so many messages, phone calls, gifts etc. from friends and strangers alike each day(almost too many to read daily, but I’m working on it, and love seeing all you guys write to me, so def keep it coming). I never thought in a million years this many people would truly love me, thank you Jesus for giving me the ultimate #squadgoals!

Jesus was hurled insults and abused!
All my best friends visit me, and wait on me hand and foot every single day!
Jesus’ friends abandoned Him, denying even knowing Him and so Jesus had to even carry part of his own murder weapons, the cross! My friends won’t even let me carry my own beach chair!

I have been given a loving marriage to a man who try’s his best to love me as Christ loves me and yes I’m sure some days I make that difficult but what a miraculous gift God let me experience… unconditional love! Wow! Thank you Jimmy Lee Masdon😘😘😘

Jesus didn’t get to have a spouse to share that romantic intimacy with!
God has allowed my husband gifts in medicine and he’s worked very hard to create an environment of financial comfortability for our family and so I don’t have to worry about health insurance or how our family will survive without me here and providing income.

Jesus died in rags, no money to his name, certainly didn’t have blue cross blue shield, or the incredible medical staff of doctors,nurses, and the rest of the staff that has made my journey easy and breezy!

Gods also allowed me to marry into an already strong existing family🙌
and so I have gotten to experience the love that step-children bring but don’t have to worry about abandoning our kids and leaving them left with only one parent, I got the honor of being a step-mom so when I die they both still have their incredible Mom and Dad! Thank you William & Avery for welcoming into your family and loving me so hard!🥰

And last but certainly not least, God blessed me as my husbands second wife!🎉

Being the second wife is also the best blessing because not only is the first wife the Mom to my husbands kids, she’s also here to support him in only ways a spouse/former spouse truly can, so I feel I can leave and know she will still be here holding it down like she always has as the strong matriarch of our family that she is, thank you Cindi Abernathy!

Thank you Lord for blended families!

Cancer has truly become my greatest gift! Finally, I found something I’m good at, SUFFERING, I’m learning my suffering isnt meaningless, it’s a platform of ministry!I pray that each day my ego will step aside and allow God to inspire others through my suffering so they can see a small glimpse of the suffering he was willing to do to save them! I’ve always felt that God was and is real and has protected me and walked with me most of my life, but he felt far away like a long distance relationship. When I was originally diagnosed with breast cancer back in 2020, he started feeling much closer. Now that the cancer is back and I’m slowly dying, I feel closer than ever to Christ. Ya see, I think He meets us in our suffering. That is the closest tie we have to him, because of Christ suffering on the cross for all of us rotten, wormy humans, we get to EXPERIENCE the greatest love story ever told!

WHY DO I HAVE PEACE IN DEATH?!
-I have salvation in Jesus Christ
-When I die I will be surrounded by fullness of Gods glory 🤯
-No more pain
-No more cancer
-No more high gas prices and taxes
-No more cellulite(hallelujah)

SINCE HE WALKED OUTTA THE GRAVE, IM WALKIN TOO!🙏🙌
#Jesusstrong #masdonstrong